Unsettled to Steady! I hate uncertainty. Which is a very interesting thing for me to say because, truth be told, I’ve actually always liked uncertainty. It ties in with my need for variety, which has always been one of my top needs. I remember doing...

Uneven Steps, Sparkly Eyes, and Finding My Footing Morning Light I woke up, stretched and smiled to myself. I felt refreshed, a ‘day in’ had done me the world of good. I got up, flung the window and shutters open letting the bright sun into the very...

Hitting Publish, Hitting Fear I hit publish on my laptop and within seconds I felt the all-too-familiar feeling of my insides trembling. I had become increasingly annoyed with these sensations that had been around for way too long. For months now I ...

I felt that familiar feeling of pressure in my bladder, pushing me to wake up – I needed to pee – I looked at my phone to check the time, it was only 4.30 – ugh. I padded over the cool wooden floor to the bathroom, geez the smell in here was intense...

The rain woke me before dawn, hammering down on the roof in great heavy sheets. I’ve always loved that kind of rain, the loud relentless kind that drowns out every other sound. It soothes me, wraps me up, and makes me feel safe. At 5:11 I checked my...

Arrival in Frankfurt My flight was uneventful, except for sitting next to a real fidget bug, everything went as planned. We arrived in Frankfurt, a messy chaotic airport, which really surprised me. My perception of Germany has always been that they ...

The first time I got it into my head that I wanted to visit Italy was in 1990. I was on my very first trip abroad with my husband at the time, to Mauritius - a lush, tropical island in the Indian Ocean, just a four-hour flight from South Africa, whe...

Growing up in an era being told 'I will give you something to cry about' led me to believe that I was abnormal, that having emotions was a bad thing!I will never forget the day nor the exact moment that understanding my emotions changed my ...

The first time I ever became aware of ‘self-empowerment’ was in 1998. I had been struggling with ME (Chronic Fatigue Syndrome) for 7 very long years. The doctors had told me there was nothing they could do for me, that I had to accept it and live wit...